No guys, this isn't going to be as long as the last one. And it's not continuing. It was brought to my attention that my last blog was a tad wordy and didn't sound like "me."
So I have a new plan. Whenever I write a blog that I'm not in love with, I'll write a different blog under the same topic in that same week.
Being in relationships is a tricky business, but we almost can't live without them.
You know, I have a few groups of friends that I really love being around. I also have a boyfriend that I care about very much, but I also have a curiosity that is like, "what about that guy? Hm..."
Relationships are messy, because there seems to be commitment to all of them. Think about the relationship with your parents, they commit to you first. Well, they kind of have to. They're stuck with you for a loooonnngggg time. They are how you learn to make all other relationships.
In my last blog, you saw how I broke up the word relationship. It kind of defines the word.
As a child you make friends by finding something common. The idea is to "fit in" through much of the teenage horny years. All you want to do is be "normal", but normal is boring. As an adult, however, the goal is different.
You realize as a young adult, at least in my world, you become friends with some of the most unlikely people if you keep your mind open. You won't judge them and they won't judge you.
I grew up in a family where they judge everyone on the planet. My parents and grandparents are some of the most judgmental people on this earth. In a culture of judgements, I managed to avoid it. They say behaviors are learned and not inborn. There are also behaviors we learn NOT to adopt. That was one.
Sex sometimes defines relationships, that's a given. I mean there is a "lay" part in the word. Not that your friendships need to have sex involved, but in romantic relationships it's at least a good 4o% of appeal in the start, I think. You have to at least be "physically attracted to the person" right?
It's when a four letter word that starts with "l" gets involved is when it gets messy. "Love". When love gets involved, it becomes harder to keep a clear head, harder to worry about "just you" and harder when you have sex. I'm talking literally for the last part.
The messy relationship is like this. Once you've introduced the four letter word, the relationship implies a stronger bond. The media portrays love as one of the most important emotions. An emotion that we make hasty decisions over, that we kiss each other over, that we change our whole life plan for someone because we supposedly "love" them over. Ok, and what if we do that? What if a few years later, we find out it can't work?
The messy part is when you are in a good relationship,but you wonder what is beyond those walls, your curiosity takes over. It creates a what-if situation with many people in your circle of friends. It's exciting, yet doesn't have the comfort of the current relationship.
For some people, having someone break your heart is easier than breaking someone else's heart. Because we know we'll be able to fix ourselves eventually. But since we're not that other person, we don't know how it will affect them. Or sometimes it's because we know it HURTS to have our heart broken and would hate to be that person that made them feel the way we felt. I would hate to cause that hurt and pain on someone else.
I think this is for the better, but in college people stop putting labels on things, well at least in my world of atc-ers. Like relationships are not "labeled". Like you can "date" without being together. Being "single" doesn't have to mean you're alone. In high school everyone and everything is a label. We're not soup cans, we don't need to live by labels.
Commitment is the big word in all relationships. Friendships, lovers, parents, they all have a desire to make it work and feel accepted as yourself. And not your fake self, but your real self.
Well I hope you read this, and I really hope you enjoy Re-Lay-Shun-Ships parts 1 and 2. This is not as wordy. But I really do enjoy writing this. I can't wait till next week to write again. If you read part 1, then you know that I have something special planned. I hope you will continue reading. So thank you for your time. Hope to see you come back next week. I really appreciate feedback, and my goal is just to make you smile when you read. If I have done that, I feel awesome. So hope I did. Thanks for reading.
Cassidy
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Re-lay-shun-ships
So you realized I spelled out relationships the way I did. The reason I wrote it out like that is because when broken up into syllables, they kind of define the word if you think about it.
Re: Let's start with the "re". "Re" is about the doing things over and over again, like apologizing, like kissing, about going out to dinner. Over and Over again. But no one says you can't enjoy that stuff over and over again. Or acting like a moron over and over again at the mall, it's still fun.
Ship: Last but not least, the "ship" part. The "ship" part comes from the tears you shed throughout your life. Whether it be with your lover or your friend, your relationship either gets you through the pain, or causes it and makes you cry. We need a ship to get through all the tears in our lives, sometimes you can't make it on your own.
Re: Let's start with the "re". "Re" is about the doing things over and over again, like apologizing, like kissing, about going out to dinner. Over and Over again. But no one says you can't enjoy that stuff over and over again. Or acting like a moron over and over again at the mall, it's still fun.
Lay: This is the basis for many many relationships. Boy likes girl, no more like, Boy thinks girl is hot, and boy wants to get the "laid". There's the "lay" part. However, I don't care what anybody says, girls are just as horny as boys, and believe me, it's vise-versa too. The "lay" part is strictly based on the hotness scale.
I know, "No Shit, Sherlock," but many relationships exist because of sex, and only because of sex. Never said that wasn't a perk.
I know, "No Shit, Sherlock," but many relationships exist because of sex, and only because of sex. Never said that wasn't a perk.
Shun: The "shun" part comes from the fighting part of all relationships, the "shunning" part. There comes a time where in all relationships, friendship, lovers and family alike, get into fights, and you are so disgusted with one another, you don't want to look or speak to each other. So we "shun" each other.
Ship: Last but not least, the "ship" part. The "ship" part comes from the tears you shed throughout your life. Whether it be with your lover or your friend, your relationship either gets you through the pain, or causes it and makes you cry. We need a ship to get through all the tears in our lives, sometimes you can't make it on your own.
So the syllables broken up do make some sense for the word. So you see how genius it was to create the word just like that. You know what though? Relationships are tricky things to create, and to maintain. You never know what is beyond the walls.
Part of being in a relationship is mostly about one thing, being vulnerable. Being able to open up to that person about anything and everything, either a friend, a lover, a teacher, or a parent. The teacher part sounds a little bit off, but believe me in some situations, some of us completly understand the openeness with some instructors, especially in the ATC. But before I digress too much, the most important thing is to trust, and know you won't be judged. EVER.
In all situations, relationships are often difficult to maintain and establish. Creating them is not a challenge, but nurturing them in the right way is. It's not always "let's be friends". It becomes difficult when your "friends" are of the opposite sex, or your sexual preference. So, I've developed a list of relationships that I see in my college. Simple relationships, and some NOT so simple.
The "I only want to be friends with you in school" Relationship:
There are people you hang out with, that you only want to hang out with when you are in a particular situation like work, or school. You want to have someone to hang out with at school or work, but that doesn't mean that you want to have sleepovers with this person or that you even really like them.
There are people you hang out with, that you only want to hang out with when you are in a particular situation like work, or school. You want to have someone to hang out with at school or work, but that doesn't mean that you want to have sleepovers with this person or that you even really like them.
The "I'm Single, and I'm on the market, and I flirt with everyone!" Relationship:
There is nothing wrong with being single and loving it. Singles are free, they can flirt with whoever they wish, when they wish. Grab an arm, hug randomly. They usually have a bunch of people they are interested in at one time, being single has it's pluses. You can hang out with who you want, when you want. Not to mention look for others. They are kind of the cliche, "playa" or "player". They just like to play the field. This isn't necessarily the "relationship", but all the other little relationships, don't last long and the connection is never there.
There is nothing wrong with being single and loving it. Singles are free, they can flirt with whoever they wish, when they wish. Grab an arm, hug randomly. They usually have a bunch of people they are interested in at one time, being single has it's pluses. You can hang out with who you want, when you want. Not to mention look for others. They are kind of the cliche, "playa" or "player". They just like to play the field. This isn't necessarily the "relationship", but all the other little relationships, don't last long and the connection is never there.
The "We have something in common. Let's bond over that" Relationship: This is how most friendships are made. You know, "we have the same science class together, isn't our teacher a bore?" that sort of thing. The more you hang out, the more you like each other and can blurt out your secrets.
Here's one of the tricky ones, The " I'm into dating this person, but there's only one teensy weensy problem. She has a BOYFRIEND" Relationship:
This has happened to every damn person on the planet. Maybe not, but it has happened to me, many times. There were times I was interested in this guy, but he always had a girl around him that would slice my hand off if she had a knife if I even grabbed his arm. People are protective of their lovers, they don't like to share. I mean nobody wants to share crabs or herpes either, but nobody wants to share their special relationship with anyone else. "I'm so in love with this girl, she's so awesome, but the only problem is...she's taken! I can't have her, she already has the kind of relationship I want, with somebody ELSE. Great." Now that makes this relationship difficult, especially if she doesn't know about the interest, and if she does, it makes it feel AWKWARD ! Awkward Octopus. In other words, super awkward."Now I have to get her to see how awesome I am, without encroaching upon her boundaries, because she might kick my ass, or worse her big thug of a boyfriend will kick my ass. Ugh!"
This has happened to every damn person on the planet. Maybe not, but it has happened to me, many times. There were times I was interested in this guy, but he always had a girl around him that would slice my hand off if she had a knife if I even grabbed his arm. People are protective of their lovers, they don't like to share. I mean nobody wants to share crabs or herpes either, but nobody wants to share their special relationship with anyone else. "I'm so in love with this girl, she's so awesome, but the only problem is...she's taken! I can't have her, she already has the kind of relationship I want, with somebody ELSE. Great." Now that makes this relationship difficult, especially if she doesn't know about the interest, and if she does, it makes it feel AWKWARD ! Awkward Octopus. In other words, super awkward."Now I have to get her to see how awesome I am, without encroaching upon her boundaries, because she might kick my ass, or worse her big thug of a boyfriend will kick my ass. Ugh!"
The "I'm Madly in Love with You" relationship:"
This is a kind of relationship, that requires a big chunk of sexual appeal as well as trust and friendship. There is no other way. Feeling like we have a protector that cares about us, that creates a bond that I like to call, "crazy" or "in love" whatever you prefer. It fills a void in our lives: sex that means something. it basically says, "I would do anything in my power, to make you happy."
This is a kind of relationship, that requires a big chunk of sexual appeal as well as trust and friendship. There is no other way. Feeling like we have a protector that cares about us, that creates a bond that I like to call, "crazy" or "in love" whatever you prefer. It fills a void in our lives: sex that means something. it basically says, "I would do anything in my power, to make you happy."
Almost done, promise. WE have three more. The "Friends with Benefits", the "You get on my nerves, but you're my friend," and "We're not friends, we're family."
The "I like you as a friend, but we don't talk much, but hanging out with you is cool. Bottom line, "We're friends, friends with benefits." Relationship:
This is another tricky relationship. Being friends shouldn't really have to be a chore, but sometimes it kinda feels that way. Sometimes you like this persons attitude, and physical makeup. Sometimes it's just fuels our horniness. Wish I were kidding. We like them as friends and we like the way they look, but sometimes the conversation is lacking. So let's just make out or do it, but not only this, "don't tell anyone, and oh yea, I'm not coming to your cousins wedding next week. I like this other girl." This is where there becomes a big issue and it becomes tricky. Some people misinterpret this relationship, like "we're romantic, and we want to be the most important thing in this person's life," but when feelings get in the way...feelings of dare I say it? LOVE? or maybe it IS just LUST. There is something about doing something so taboo, it's an adrenaline rush, and that's ALL it is, and all it ever will be. But hey, sometimes there is something there more than just love in the friendship. They don't usually work out real well because they become like puppets with strings attached and someone ends up getting hurt, because they are "Friends, Friends with Benefits" and not in a "I'm madly in love with you relationship." One of these people gets hurt because feelings are like strings. The strings get tangled because often times, one person thinks they are in a romantic relationship and to the other, friends are not lovers. Lovers are lovers, and friends are just friends, not lovers.
This is another tricky relationship. Being friends shouldn't really have to be a chore, but sometimes it kinda feels that way. Sometimes you like this persons attitude, and physical makeup. Sometimes it's just fuels our horniness. Wish I were kidding. We like them as friends and we like the way they look, but sometimes the conversation is lacking. So let's just make out or do it, but not only this, "don't tell anyone, and oh yea, I'm not coming to your cousins wedding next week. I like this other girl." This is where there becomes a big issue and it becomes tricky. Some people misinterpret this relationship, like "we're romantic, and we want to be the most important thing in this person's life," but when feelings get in the way...feelings of dare I say it? LOVE? or maybe it IS just LUST. There is something about doing something so taboo, it's an adrenaline rush, and that's ALL it is, and all it ever will be. But hey, sometimes there is something there more than just love in the friendship. They don't usually work out real well because they become like puppets with strings attached and someone ends up getting hurt, because they are "Friends, Friends with Benefits" and not in a "I'm madly in love with you relationship." One of these people gets hurt because feelings are like strings. The strings get tangled because often times, one person thinks they are in a romantic relationship and to the other, friends are not lovers. Lovers are lovers, and friends are just friends, not lovers.
The "You're my friend, but you get on my nerves" / "Friends by association" Relationship:
These are the friends that we only hang out with, because someone else, really kinda likes them, and appreciates their qualities. Their qualities you like, but their personality is not likable to you. You enjoy having a conversation with this person on ocassion, but sometimes you would just wish they would "Shut up," and "they don't have many friends,it can't hurt, right? " Usually they aren't around all that much and avoiding them. Sometimes they fall under the Enemies category.
And last but not least. The " I've hung out with you so much, and you've put up with me even when I was too drunk to function, and still want to me to be in your life. Oh yea, did I mention you helped me deal with my strings, AKA, my feelings? We're not friends, you've become my adopted family" Relationship:
These are the people that got to hanging out after, "we have something in common" relationship. Being friends is one thing, but it's another when you trust these people to the point, that you know in your heart that these people truly have your best interests at heart. They aren't looking to piss you off, they want to be the person who gives you comfort when you need it, gives you a slap in the face when you need it, and you can cry in front of them, and the most important part, that they enjoy doing that for you. It isn't a chore. I know people who it is a chore to make them feel better, because self esteem is low. These are the people that care about you like you're their brother or sister, and would probably take a bullet for you if it was you vs them, because they know the feeling is mutual, you would do the same for them.
This is it for relationships today. I could go longer, but I'm surprised you kept reading for this long. I really appreciate you reading this week. I hope you will keep following and I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.
By the way, I really enjoy reading comments.
Next week, I have a special blog in mind. Hope to see you then.
Cassidy
These are the friends that we only hang out with, because someone else, really kinda likes them, and appreciates their qualities. Their qualities you like, but their personality is not likable to you. You enjoy having a conversation with this person on ocassion, but sometimes you would just wish they would "Shut up," and "they don't have many friends,it can't hurt, right? " Usually they aren't around all that much and avoiding them. Sometimes they fall under the Enemies category.
And last but not least. The " I've hung out with you so much, and you've put up with me even when I was too drunk to function, and still want to me to be in your life. Oh yea, did I mention you helped me deal with my strings, AKA, my feelings? We're not friends, you've become my adopted family" Relationship:
These are the people that got to hanging out after, "we have something in common" relationship. Being friends is one thing, but it's another when you trust these people to the point, that you know in your heart that these people truly have your best interests at heart. They aren't looking to piss you off, they want to be the person who gives you comfort when you need it, gives you a slap in the face when you need it, and you can cry in front of them, and the most important part, that they enjoy doing that for you. It isn't a chore. I know people who it is a chore to make them feel better, because self esteem is low. These are the people that care about you like you're their brother or sister, and would probably take a bullet for you if it was you vs them, because they know the feeling is mutual, you would do the same for them.
This is it for relationships today. I could go longer, but I'm surprised you kept reading for this long. I really appreciate you reading this week. I hope you will keep following and I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.
By the way, I really enjoy reading comments.
Next week, I have a special blog in mind. Hope to see you then.
Cassidy
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Writing a Letter
You know I've been excited to write my next blog all week, and now when it comes time to write it, I have nothing to say. I really hope this blog is as good as the other one. This probably won't be, but I would appreciate if you read it and let me know what you thought of it. But hey, pessimism never gets you anywhere.
How many times has that happened to all you writers out there? All you song writers, all you optimists, all you broken hearted lovers. Well hey, I may have just thought of something while ranting.
When was the last time you received a letter?
The last time I received a letter, was before I even got out of my private school. I was about however old you are in 5th grade. It was from the girl I thought hated me, and believe me, she was not nice to me. She sent me a letter saying how she would miss me when I left. Even though she was mean to me, i appreciated and was flattered by the letter.
Isn't it funny how you can go through life and never even know if you made an impact on someone? A letter can change that an impact, and change the course of history. Or maybe not.
Love letters are just as cool. In my land of the ATC at college, it seems to be a lost and dying art form.
I also wouldn't be surprised if we brought it back in our land of ATC.
In the art land, there are musicians and writers and painters and graphic artists and no one can even come up with a creative way to say,
" hey, I love you."
or "hey, you're special to me, but we can't be friends"
well not like that's a great way to break up with someone, but it sure as hell beats a text message that says, U + I = OVER.
Maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit, but maybe I'm not.
It's like on Valentine's Day. Valentine's Day isn't just about romantic love, but it's about all kinds of love. Like your love for your parents, or your hatred for your parents. Or your love interest for 20 years.
Wouldn't it be nice to look at letters and say, " I remember that girl in high school and she was really nice. Wonder how she is?" Well now we don't get to do that all this much, because everyone we know is connected on Facebook or Twitter.
Well, it's kind of a hinderance to human interaction. I'm really just ranting and raving on everything today.
There seems to be a romanticism to the letter writing. With technology, everyone seems to have failed miserably, in expressing their feelings into words.
But if I could write a letter to everyone in my life and who used to be in my life, it would sound a little like this: The names have been changed to protect the lovers and even the guilty. This is what I would write to these people.
Dear Everyone,
I really care about all of you, or at least I did at one point. I may have met you 2 weeks ago, or 2 years ago, or 15 days ago or 15 years ago.
Dear Dierdre,
It's been forever since I've seen you. I thought you and I were really really tight. I really had a great time with you and your family on vacation a few years ago. But after that vacation, it was like I never heard from you again. I remembered your birthday, I remembered hanging out in the summer time, talking about boys and such. All that changed when you got a love in your life. I wonder how you're doing. I haven't heard from you in what seems like forever, because you and I used to be like sisters, even closer than me and my sister. I hope you are still doing well, but it hurts me when you haven't returned my phone calls in 2 years, or don't return my messages. We never had a big falling out, so I don't understand. I hope to see you again and hope we can get to know each other again, because I miss us.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Ralpho,
I've known you for a long time. You and I get along so well. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me swear, you make me smile. That is the most important. You love me for me. You love my bad qualities as well as my good. School takes a lot of your time away from me, and sometimes that hurts me. I understand that it's important to keep a career in mind, but sometimes I wish you would just step back and smell the roses. Oh wait, you do. I need to do that. Well, you know that you are the most important person in my life, and it will be hard to lose you because you keep me crazy, and have to keep me from floating too high in the sky like some helium balloons. Keep me crazy and naive and open and I will keep you focused.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Bernard,
I've only you known you for a short time. But I really really care about you. You have a lot going on in your life. You already know that. I really do feel sorry for you. You put up with more than you bargained for. But sometimes I also think you create your own problems. Take care of yourself, I wish you the best and would like to get to know you better. I really want you to experience the joys in life, so don't sell yourself short, you're better than that. I wish you would stop the drugs, they don't make it better. Don't lie to yourself. Don't lie to me. I trust you.
Love,
Cassidy
Ok, I'll only write one more letter, because it's getting late, and who the hell cares what I have to write to people that are not recognizable? This last one I'm going to combine a few people
Dear Suri, Jackie, Mr. Ed, and Craig
Jackie, I'm sorry I betrayed your trust, but quite frankly, I didn't do anything. Not like I stole your man!
Love,
Cassidy
Suri, I've only met you last year. You were awesome. But I wish I didn't have to censor myself from you. Like what I say, is blunt and stupid, so please don't take it personally. You know it's not meant to hurt you, but meant to make you laugh. It's meant to hug you when I can't be there.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Esvetlana,
You are a beautiful woman. I love hanging out with you. You act like my older sister! It means so much to me, that you always call me beautiful and that you talk to me even when you have work to do. Your smile is radiant, like your personality. It is so firey, and full of life, you are a very passionate person and I love that you know that you are never too old to change. You can always learn and change. You have given me hope for my future, and some day I hope I can be like you.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Fred,
You are a really awesome guy. But I really wish you didn't do all the drugs all the time. I wish I could tell you there is more to life than getting high or getting shitfaced. I really like getting to know you, and I hope some day you stop. I hope to be friends with you for a very long time, hope that you're around to make it wherever you want to be.
Love,
Cassidy
Mr. Ed,
You have been fantastic to me since the day I met you. You have talked me through some all over feelings, some crazy thoughts. Read my mind a few million times. You make my day better. You've been a guide to me, and I hope to keep in touch with you for the rest of my life.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Craig,
You're a cool guy, but you're hurtful sometimes. I don't know if you mean to be, but you don't need to know everything. You are a creative individual, but that does not make you better than anyone or make your opinion right. It's just an opinion.
Love,
Cassidy
Well I hope those of you who read this blog enjoyed it. I also hope that you will continue reading, all my blogs won't be just like this. So I really would like some feedback. You guys are awesome. Thanks for reading my rant. It means a lot to me . Hope you'll come back next week to read more.
Love,
Cassidy
How many times has that happened to all you writers out there? All you song writers, all you optimists, all you broken hearted lovers. Well hey, I may have just thought of something while ranting.
When was the last time you received a letter?
The last time I received a letter, was before I even got out of my private school. I was about however old you are in 5th grade. It was from the girl I thought hated me, and believe me, she was not nice to me. She sent me a letter saying how she would miss me when I left. Even though she was mean to me, i appreciated and was flattered by the letter.
Isn't it funny how you can go through life and never even know if you made an impact on someone? A letter can change that an impact, and change the course of history. Or maybe not.
Love letters are just as cool. In my land of the ATC at college, it seems to be a lost and dying art form.
I also wouldn't be surprised if we brought it back in our land of ATC.
In the art land, there are musicians and writers and painters and graphic artists and no one can even come up with a creative way to say,
" hey, I love you."
or "hey, you're special to me, but we can't be friends"
well not like that's a great way to break up with someone, but it sure as hell beats a text message that says, U + I = OVER.
Maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit, but maybe I'm not.
It's like on Valentine's Day. Valentine's Day isn't just about romantic love, but it's about all kinds of love. Like your love for your parents, or your hatred for your parents. Or your love interest for 20 years.
Wouldn't it be nice to look at letters and say, " I remember that girl in high school and she was really nice. Wonder how she is?" Well now we don't get to do that all this much, because everyone we know is connected on Facebook or Twitter.
Well, it's kind of a hinderance to human interaction. I'm really just ranting and raving on everything today.
There seems to be a romanticism to the letter writing. With technology, everyone seems to have failed miserably, in expressing their feelings into words.
But if I could write a letter to everyone in my life and who used to be in my life, it would sound a little like this: The names have been changed to protect the lovers and even the guilty. This is what I would write to these people.
Dear Everyone,
I really care about all of you, or at least I did at one point. I may have met you 2 weeks ago, or 2 years ago, or 15 days ago or 15 years ago.
Dear Dierdre,
It's been forever since I've seen you. I thought you and I were really really tight. I really had a great time with you and your family on vacation a few years ago. But after that vacation, it was like I never heard from you again. I remembered your birthday, I remembered hanging out in the summer time, talking about boys and such. All that changed when you got a love in your life. I wonder how you're doing. I haven't heard from you in what seems like forever, because you and I used to be like sisters, even closer than me and my sister. I hope you are still doing well, but it hurts me when you haven't returned my phone calls in 2 years, or don't return my messages. We never had a big falling out, so I don't understand. I hope to see you again and hope we can get to know each other again, because I miss us.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Ralpho,
I've known you for a long time. You and I get along so well. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me swear, you make me smile. That is the most important. You love me for me. You love my bad qualities as well as my good. School takes a lot of your time away from me, and sometimes that hurts me. I understand that it's important to keep a career in mind, but sometimes I wish you would just step back and smell the roses. Oh wait, you do. I need to do that. Well, you know that you are the most important person in my life, and it will be hard to lose you because you keep me crazy, and have to keep me from floating too high in the sky like some helium balloons. Keep me crazy and naive and open and I will keep you focused.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Bernard,
I've only you known you for a short time. But I really really care about you. You have a lot going on in your life. You already know that. I really do feel sorry for you. You put up with more than you bargained for. But sometimes I also think you create your own problems. Take care of yourself, I wish you the best and would like to get to know you better. I really want you to experience the joys in life, so don't sell yourself short, you're better than that. I wish you would stop the drugs, they don't make it better. Don't lie to yourself. Don't lie to me. I trust you.
Love,
Cassidy
Ok, I'll only write one more letter, because it's getting late, and who the hell cares what I have to write to people that are not recognizable? This last one I'm going to combine a few people
Dear Suri, Jackie, Mr. Ed, and Craig
Jackie, I'm sorry I betrayed your trust, but quite frankly, I didn't do anything. Not like I stole your man!
Love,
Cassidy
Suri, I've only met you last year. You were awesome. But I wish I didn't have to censor myself from you. Like what I say, is blunt and stupid, so please don't take it personally. You know it's not meant to hurt you, but meant to make you laugh. It's meant to hug you when I can't be there.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Esvetlana,
You are a beautiful woman. I love hanging out with you. You act like my older sister! It means so much to me, that you always call me beautiful and that you talk to me even when you have work to do. Your smile is radiant, like your personality. It is so firey, and full of life, you are a very passionate person and I love that you know that you are never too old to change. You can always learn and change. You have given me hope for my future, and some day I hope I can be like you.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Fred,
You are a really awesome guy. But I really wish you didn't do all the drugs all the time. I wish I could tell you there is more to life than getting high or getting shitfaced. I really like getting to know you, and I hope some day you stop. I hope to be friends with you for a very long time, hope that you're around to make it wherever you want to be.
Love,
Cassidy
Mr. Ed,
You have been fantastic to me since the day I met you. You have talked me through some all over feelings, some crazy thoughts. Read my mind a few million times. You make my day better. You've been a guide to me, and I hope to keep in touch with you for the rest of my life.
Love,
Cassidy
Dear Craig,
You're a cool guy, but you're hurtful sometimes. I don't know if you mean to be, but you don't need to know everything. You are a creative individual, but that does not make you better than anyone or make your opinion right. It's just an opinion.
Love,
Cassidy
Well I hope those of you who read this blog enjoyed it. I also hope that you will continue reading, all my blogs won't be just like this. So I really would like some feedback. You guys are awesome. Thanks for reading my rant. It means a lot to me . Hope you'll come back next week to read more.
Love,
Cassidy
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
"Community" is the best part of "Community College"
This is my first blog. I hope to make it fantastic. To start off I wanted to start with something I think my fellow classmates could agree with. I'm not really ready to piss anyone off quite yet. I'm hoping to get better at this blog thing, so please bear with me through some boring ones. Hope you'll continue reading.
Most of my peers have continued their education at a four year university to earn a Bachelors degree or started at a Community College to figure out what on earth they want to do to GET their bachelors degree. Most people I talk to, either like their college or end up not loving it and transferring elsewhere.
Sounds of guitar strumming, some random singing, drum kits, classic rock pandora radio, staged fights, random outbursts of "I wish he would do me harder"s, and hanging out in classes we don't belong in. This is an average day at my community college in the Advanced Technology Center. All these activities are engaged in a learning environment. Oh yea, and running across the campus till my pulse is waaaayyy over normal to get to my science class is also normal.
I was skyping with one of my friends the other day who is studying at a Penn State Annex. We talked about school and such, and I mentioned that I loved my community college in Nanticoke, PA. She was shocked to hear that someone could love and have pride in a "Community College". That bugged me.
Anyone can be at college to binge drink, party, smoke, and get the "college experience". And also flunk out.
In my college, there are two types of people. Those who are creatively naive, and those who are conventional.
The Creatively Naive are what we like to call ATC-ers.
The Others are Over-the-bridgers. I'll explain this is in a second.
We have a bridge at our college. Where most of the college is, aka across the bridge, they teach you math, science, and how to take a whole lot of tests.
Once you cross that bridge, you have entered the world of the creatively naive. The world of the ATC. There are no MLA format papers here.
They teach you things way more valuable than how to take a test, or write an APA format psychology paper. I've compiled a list of things one learns in the ATC aka: The part of the campus where we all wear black and smoke pot. Weird things happen here. We do however, have virtual campfires with marshmallows and ghost stories. Here's the list.
1. You should not do anything for free, you shall be rewarded with quarters.
2. Your classmates are a million times better teachers than your instructor. They come from all different walks of life, therefore offer a brand new perspective.
3. You can agree to disagree. You are never wrong in the ATC.
4. Your instructors are more than instructors. They are more like life mentors.
5. You can leave anything in the land of happy macs, it will stay there until the end of eternity. Except for food. Guard your food with your life.
6. We have couches. We can have Domino's Pizza delivered to said couches.
7. You will never go hungry again.
8. You can burst out in "The Internet is for Porn" and have five people join in.
9. You will love Ed Ackerman.
10. You judge people based on their character, not their looks.
11. You will discover that you will never figure yourself out, but why take what you do find out as useless information?
12. Halloween is the Christmas of the ATC.
13. Learn to challenge your instructors: they aren't always right.
14. Learn to take risks. "Nothing risque, nothing gained."
15. We are all celebrities in the ATC. It's not just school, we will come back years later and call it home.
16. You will always have a shoulder to cry on. Even if someone you never met is that shoulder.
17. People do things just to be nice. They share umbrellas when it's raining and you don't have one.
18. The "Breakfast of Champions" is composed of Twizzlers, Dr. Pepper, Peanut Butter Crackers, Reeses Peanut Butter Cups, and other random candy bars that Ed has in his office. You are welcome to it every day.
19. You will have your mind read by someone else.
20. There are no accidents.
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