Writing a Letter

You know I've been excited to write my next blog all week, and now when it comes time to write it, I have nothing to say. I really hope this blog is as good as the other one. This probably won't be, but I would appreciate if you read it and let me know what you thought of it. But hey, pessimism never gets you anywhere.

How many times has that happened to all you writers out there? All you song writers, all you optimists, all you broken hearted lovers.  Well hey, I may have just thought of something while ranting.

When was the last time you received a letter?

The last time I received a letter, was before I even got out of my private school.  I was about however old you are in 5th grade. It was from the girl I thought hated me, and believe me, she was not nice to me. She sent me a letter saying how she would miss me when I left. Even though she was mean to me, i appreciated and was flattered by the letter.

Isn't it funny how you can go through life and never even know if you made an impact on someone? A letter can change that an impact, and change the course of history. Or maybe not.

Love letters are just as cool. In my land of the ATC at college, it seems to be a lost and dying art form.

I also wouldn't be surprised if we brought it back in our land of ATC.

In the art land, there are musicians and writers and painters and graphic artists and no one can even come up with a creative way to say,
" hey, I love you."
or "hey, you're special to me, but we can't be friends"

well not like that's a great way to break up with someone, but it sure as hell beats a text message that says, U + I = OVER.

Maybe I'm exaggerating a little bit, but maybe I'm not.

It's like on Valentine's Day. Valentine's Day isn't just about romantic love, but it's about all kinds of love. Like your love for your parents, or your hatred for your parents. Or your love interest for 20 years.

Wouldn't it be nice to look at letters and say, " I remember that girl in high school and she was really nice. Wonder how she is?" Well now we don't get to do that all this much, because everyone we know is connected on Facebook or Twitter.

Well, it's kind of a hinderance to human interaction. I'm really just ranting and raving on everything today.

There seems to be a romanticism to the letter writing. With technology, everyone seems to have failed miserably, in expressing their feelings into words.

But if I could write a letter to everyone in my life and who used to be in my life, it would sound a little like this: The names have been changed to protect the lovers and even the guilty. This is what I would write to these people.

Dear Everyone,

I really care about all of you, or at least I did at one point. I may have met you 2 weeks ago, or 2 years ago, or 15 days ago or 15 years ago.

Dear Dierdre,
 It's been forever since I've seen you. I thought you and I were really really tight. I really had a great time with you and your family on vacation a few years ago. But after that vacation, it was like I never heard from you again. I remembered your birthday, I remembered hanging out in the summer time, talking about boys and such. All that changed when you got a love in your life. I wonder how you're doing. I haven't heard from you in what seems like forever, because you and I used to be like sisters, even closer than me and my sister. I hope you are still doing well, but it hurts me when you haven't returned my phone calls in 2 years, or don't return my messages.  We never had a big falling out, so I don't understand. I hope to see you again and hope we can get to know each other again, because I miss us.

Love,
Cassidy


Dear Ralpho,
I've known you for a long time. You and I get along so well. You make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me swear, you make me smile. That is the most important. You love me for me. You love my bad qualities as well as my good. School takes a lot of your time away from me, and sometimes that hurts me. I understand that it's important to keep a career in mind, but sometimes I wish you would just step back and smell the roses. Oh wait, you do. I need to do that. Well, you know that you are the most important person in my life, and it will be hard to lose you because you keep me crazy, and have to keep me from floating too high in the sky like some helium balloons. Keep me crazy and naive and open and I will keep you focused.

Love,
Cassidy

Dear Bernard,
I've only you known you for a short time. But I really really care about you. You have a lot going on in your life. You already know that. I really do feel sorry for you. You put up with more than you bargained for. But sometimes I also think you create your own problems. Take care of yourself, I wish you the best and would like to get to know you better. I really want you to experience the joys in life, so don't sell yourself short, you're better than that. I wish you would stop the drugs, they don't make it better. Don't lie to yourself. Don't lie to me. I trust you.

Love,
Cassidy



Ok, I'll only write one more letter, because it's getting late, and who the hell cares what I have to write to people that are not recognizable? This last one I'm going to combine a few people

Dear Suri, Jackie, Mr. Ed, and Craig

Jackie, I'm sorry I betrayed your trust, but quite frankly, I didn't do anything. Not like I stole your man!

Love,
Cassidy

Suri, I've only met you last year. You were awesome. But I wish I didn't have to censor myself from you. Like what I say, is blunt and stupid, so please don't take it personally. You know it's not meant to hurt you, but meant to make you laugh. It's meant to hug you when I can't be there.

Love,
Cassidy

Dear Esvetlana,
You are a beautiful woman. I love hanging out with you. You act like my older sister! It means so much to me, that you always call me beautiful and that you talk to me even when you have work to do. Your smile is radiant, like your personality. It is so firey, and full of life, you are  a very passionate person and I love that you know that you are never too old to change. You can always learn and change. You have given me hope for my future, and some day I hope I can be like you.

Love,
Cassidy


Dear Fred,
You are a really awesome guy. But I really wish you didn't do all the drugs all the time. I wish I could tell you there is more to life than getting high or getting shitfaced. I really like getting to know you, and I hope some day you stop. I hope to be friends with you for a very long time, hope that you're around to make it wherever you want to be.

Love,
Cassidy

Mr. Ed,
You have been fantastic to me since the day I met you. You have talked me through some all over feelings, some crazy thoughts. Read my mind a few million times. You make my day better. You've been a guide to me, and I hope to keep in touch with you for the rest of my life.

Love,
Cassidy

Dear Craig,
You're a cool guy, but you're hurtful sometimes.  I don't know if you mean to be, but you don't need to know everything. You are a creative individual, but that does not make you better than anyone or make your opinion right. It's just an opinion.

Love,
Cassidy


Well I hope those of you who read this blog enjoyed it. I also hope that you will continue reading, all my blogs won't be just like this. So I really would like some feedback. You guys are awesome. Thanks for reading my rant. It means a lot to me . Hope you'll come back next week to read more.

Love,
Cassidy